This past month, we had a painting time. The prompt was to paint anything that would represent where you are on your journey now. We did this a couple of years ago, and this is the painting I came up with at that time, and what I wrote about it on Facebook:
"I often see grief like an ocean. Five years ago I felt like I was drowning. Now, most of the time, I am on the shore, but very very aware of other moms who are now where I once was. In the picture I am standing on the shore, tossing them a life preserver of comfort and hope, but willing to wade into the ocean with them if needed. The clouds are dark and threatening, but the sun still shines behind them, reminding me that God is still there in all his goodness, even when our circumstances threaten to hide His face."
And on the days when I am hurting and discontent (and those days will come, I know), I will look at this picture and know that the lives of all of us are in the hand of the One outside of whose care not one sparrow falls. And we are worth more than many sparrows (Matthew 10:29-31)!